He wants to go/die so badly that he musters all that he can to break through the wall, and the cli
ff upon where the cathedral rests was not high enough, so in his desperation and will and concquered
and enraged spirit, the land below him vanishes in a flash and there is nothing but a seemingly
endless chasm below him... .. He falls, crying, his tears streaming up and way from his eyes, 
and his life fights not to keep from falling.  He is a doll who doesn't want to live and be used 
anymore, by anybody.  Bethel looks on, agape and aghast, her mind blank and adrift... ..